This long winded rant will likely be heard by few and remembered by no one but what good it can do anyone to share misery I shall grant them. You likely do not know me and I do not know you which is ironic considering how small our community is. The feedism community is something I've done math on to discover that about 1 in 30,000 people are into feedism and those numbers get worse when you look at smaller groups within our community. To find a partner is nothing short of hopeless let alone at an older age.
And yet here I sit in fantasy feeder still as I have been for decades yet. I was far younger than I'd like to admit with saturday morning cartoons when I realized this was a piece of myself but a piece I'll likely not be able to share again. The past relationship I had was lovely but had its hardships. It's not simply enough to find 1 in 30,000 it has to get more narrow than that. Not just for me but for you too reader. If you are into more feminine forms then girls make up 1 in 10 of us and should you need a feeder then its 1 of 5 of them (including the FAs in that) and now decide if you like the person, do they like you? Do you share hobbies? Can you trust them? Do they have financial stability, similar political views, pet peeves you can avoid, a sense of conversation that flows with you, a family you are happy to spend time with, friends you don't mind being around? Well great they are halfway across the world and due to the disproportionate m/f ratio likely either drowning in messages and wary of trusting anyone or just some horny sleezebag of a guy.who will do and say anything to get a cheap thrill.
I hate this prison.
And yet I cannot leave. My sense of intimacy exists entirely within the confines of this community and its one of gods best jokes that the person I found previously was almost right. So close it could've worked from the right angle. Even as I browse hinge and bumble and whatever other predatory dating apps I am coaxed to download with the promise of finding a soul mate, I do so understanding that I'm luring someone unsuspecting into a relationship that very likely will be void of true sexual pleasure and higher levels of intimacy or should they be willing to mimic what I desire then a plastic recreation of a thing I'll never know again.
I pray, dear reader, you do not know these frustrations. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. As I watch my friends fall in love and find their special person I am in hell looking at heaven. I pray you are not so deep into this community that you cannot exist without it.
I fucking hate the feedism community and so badly wish I could erase it from my sense of self but thats not how these things work.
Lastly, I hope you find love. It's the least anyone is owed.
~ Loopsnbloops
And yet here I sit in fantasy feeder still as I have been for decades yet. I was far younger than I'd like to admit with saturday morning cartoons when I realized this was a piece of myself but a piece I'll likely not be able to share again. The past relationship I had was lovely but had its hardships. It's not simply enough to find 1 in 30,000 it has to get more narrow than that. Not just for me but for you too reader. If you are into more feminine forms then girls make up 1 in 10 of us and should you need a feeder then its 1 of 5 of them (including the FAs in that) and now decide if you like the person, do they like you? Do you share hobbies? Can you trust them? Do they have financial stability, similar political views, pet peeves you can avoid, a sense of conversation that flows with you, a family you are happy to spend time with, friends you don't mind being around? Well great they are halfway across the world and due to the disproportionate m/f ratio likely either drowning in messages and wary of trusting anyone or just some horny sleezebag of a guy.who will do and say anything to get a cheap thrill.
I hate this prison.
And yet I cannot leave. My sense of intimacy exists entirely within the confines of this community and its one of gods best jokes that the person I found previously was almost right. So close it could've worked from the right angle. Even as I browse hinge and bumble and whatever other predatory dating apps I am coaxed to download with the promise of finding a soul mate, I do so understanding that I'm luring someone unsuspecting into a relationship that very likely will be void of true sexual pleasure and higher levels of intimacy or should they be willing to mimic what I desire then a plastic recreation of a thing I'll never know again.
I pray, dear reader, you do not know these frustrations. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. As I watch my friends fall in love and find their special person I am in hell looking at heaven. I pray you are not so deep into this community that you cannot exist without it.
I fucking hate the feedism community and so badly wish I could erase it from my sense of self but thats not how these things work.
Lastly, I hope you find love. It's the least anyone is owed.
~ Loopsnbloops
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